My ongoing resolution...

New Year Resolutions.

I'm not even very sure whether I am a believer of such. Recently at cell meet, ML got all of us to write our New Year Resolution, or rather, 'spiritual resolution' on a piece of paper. Got the paper from ML and I wrote what I felt I needed to grow in... An envelope was also given to us to tuck in the paper. She decided to get us to keep it with us instead of collecting it back from us. I suppose we are expected to be convicted, or rather, disciplined enough to keep to our word.
Just had a thought that if i keep this piece of paper tucked in my bible but no one ever sees it. I honestly don't even trust myself in fulfilling it.
Hence here it is.. wide spread open...

1) Invest more into real , personal relationships - To put more time and effort in going for personal meet-ups and also keeping them in prayer consistently.

2) Spend more time resting in the presence of God aka. MORE time spent for quiet times. To devote my Wednesday nights for longer QTs.

3) To develop heart of prayer - join the intercessory team, aka Upper Room Ministry (??? - still a ..??... still praying about it... notice the irony? =P)

Yeah, my resolutions are all achievable and I've decided not to hide them. Afterall, the resolutions are meant to be advantageous anyway. All in all, hoping to see a personal revival in my more-than-ordinary life.

"A New Year's resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous. " - wikipedia.

Hatiku rindu melihat kemuliaan-Mu...

Yesuslah Tuhan Yang Layak Ditinggikan
Layak Disembah Oleh Suku-Suku Bangsa
Dengan Darah-Mu, Kau Telah Tebus bangsaku
Genapi Tuhan Firman-Mu Atas Neg’riku

Hatiku Rindu Melihat Kemuliaan-Mu
Hatiku Rindu Melihat Curahan Kuasa-Mu
Di Tanah Tercinta Negara Malaysia
Kuberdoa Malaysia Penuh Kemuliaan-Mu
Malaysia Bagi Kemuliaan-Mu

For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. (Ephesians 6:12)

Come on mighty warriors of God, pray for your country..!

Beautifully broken

are you beautifully broken? - Christina Holder

In a world that repeatedly breaks our hearts, our deepest pain can also be our greatest source of joy and purpose. Brokenness draws us to God like no other condition can. He is the only One who can give us true hope and use our pain for His glory and for His good purpose. The deepest hurts of our fallen world may be inescapable, but God also promises us that He is "our refuge and strength" (Psalm 46:1-2), the deliverer of all our fears (Psalm 34:4) and the One who wants to use for good the pain of those who belong to Him (Romans 8:28).

So often we want to skip our seasons of brokenness. We don't want to feel the pain or the sorrow or the fear or the shame. We long for the time when we will be OK again. But the truth is that until Heaven, we won't ever be OK. Until then, we have a choice. Will we choose to allow ourselves to truly experience our broken state? Will we ask God to use our deepest hurts beyond ourselves? Will we dive into turbulent waters and tread upon cracked earth? It's a frightening challenge. But what blessings are on the other side of brokenness? God promises to trade the ashes of our failures, losses and suffering for His true beauty. He longs to make us beautiful in our brokenness. Beautifully broken.

Ah, when to the heart of man
Was it ever less than a treason
To go with the drift of things,
To yield with a grace to reason,
And bow and accept the end
Of love or a season?

—from Reluctance by Robert Frost

Yes, I am closing the curtains and moving on....
Thank you Lord for you are good..
Your love endures forever and I know that when You say forever, I don't have a space of doubt for that.

Thank YOU....

How I prefer it to be...

Had some love for a while
Don't know what's its reason
Maybe I hoped a little too much, tried a little too hard
Know I had to go through this season
To arrive at where I am now
By myself again

Suddenly felt that I have not much to do
Lazing around nowhere particular to be
An effortless kind of freedom
Not much to think about
With no one
Just me
But it's okay, that's all I need
Just me

Maybe I've just been too busy writing my story
So I haven't noticed much of Him
But He's been with me
Perhaps He felt like the extra
But He's been with me
So patiently
Watching and waiting for me
Waiting to show me where He fits
In this story

I'm by myself
I'm by myself
but not alone
No it's not that hard to be
I don't belong to anyone
But I belong to the King
I will keep on singing
Yes I belong to the King
I'll let You write my story
Just the way it should be

Yes, this is how I prefer it to be... How I prefer it to be...

One day in the time He pens it down
I'll trust in love and start again
And when I look behind
At all my aching pain
I have to thank the wrongs that brought me to a love that lasts for long

Yes, this is how I prefer it to be... How I prefer it to be...

Just a little writing on a lazy Saturday afternoon
Lazing around nowhere particular to be
An effortless kind of freedom
Not much to think about
With no one
Just me