I am a sucker for guitars....

...yeah I am....
Felt connected with this song as I was browsing randomly on youtube....
Couldn't find the original version by "By the Tree" but here's the cover version by this 2 Singaporean brothers which really blew me away too~!


When I'm broken, You're the missing piece
When I'm empty, You are my drink
When I'm tired, You are my strength

You are my desire
No one else will do
Only You can satisfy
No one Lord but You

Surround me this is what I pray
That Your presence will guide me through each day
By Your mercy Lord, in me, have Your way

You are my Desire
No one else will do
Nothing else can satisfy
No one Lord but You

You've given me a passion to follow You
To worship You Lord in spirit, in truth
I have found the warmth of Your embrace
Lost in the shadows of Your grace

What I listen on repeat mode now..

Got this CD as a gift for serving in the "Resonate" service organising team. Had it with me some time ago but never got around to paying much attention to it until a few days back. Great CD with simple, uncomplicated lyrics. Track 08 particularly got hold of my spiritman. Tried looking for a youtube version of the song to put it up here but to no avail. Ah well.. nonetheless, I believe the words speak powerfully on its own...
... may it lift your spirit the way it's lifting mine now.

"SURRENDER"

Everything that was
Is in Your hands
And all that is to come
I give to You
Take control

This life belongs to You
Forgive me Lord
For walking my own road
Take control
Jesus take control
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
Now and forever

I surrender
I surrender
I surrender
To You
To You

That I may hear Your voice
That I may know Your heart
That I would see Your world
Through the eyes of hope
This my prayer oh God
This my prayer

Words and Music by Jaye Liubinskas
© 2007 Paradise Worship
Administered by Word Publishing Australia
CCLI # 4992192

PS: Special thanks to Mr G for picking the CD. Good choice :)

Randomness

I've recently had a conversation with my personal career coach in my firm during one of my after work hours. I feel extremely blessed for having her as my personal guider / adviser journeying through my work life here in this firm. Appreciate her patience and support especially when this job really demands a lot of a person. We did a random catch-up and had dinner at Zen's somewhere just outside the our office. During our meeting, this particular question she threw to me left a thought in my mind for a bit. She asked me this, "Are you a random person, or a logical person?"
Erm, I felt that I could be a bit of both, but maybe leaning more towards the random side. Funny that it got me pondering when was my last "I-did-it-because-I-felt-like-doing-it" moment. Honestly, I couldn't remember at all!

I've recently shared that I am in the midst of braving through some struggles. I somewhat feel so caught up with it. I desire so great to break-free. I thought that switching on my "randomness" mode during times like these would provide for a temporary cure in these times of rocky roads.

And so... I recently did this:

....woke up one morning at 7am, thought of going to TTDI park for a jog. Didn't have Pinky (my GPS) with me, took random turns not knowing how to get to the park. In the end, if this is not random enough, I ended up at another hilly park somewhere within TTDI.. hmm, I thought might as well!:PPp Had my iPod strapped on my right arm, turn on my usual "jogging playlist"(yeah, mostly upbeat songs - I named the playlist "ROcK On Jesus!!" Heh... heh..) and I was ready to go!! :P *Huff Puff HUff Puff*

Anyone got a clue where's this place? (ok, photo not that helpful. Nevermind =P)

'Twas a good sweat after such a long time of not exercising regularly due to long working hours and all. my calves are still hurting, actually. Blergh.. UNFIT. :(
Random Mir didn't quite end her morning with just exercise at the park. Teehee... Drove to 1 Utama after that with a thought of hunting down for an almost overdue birthday present. It was only 9.30am when I got there and most shops where still shut. There was Kluang Station open already for brekky. I had my bible and journal with me, so I did my QT just right there. It was a great time of unwinding having my me moments, away from the usual mundane routines of my life. Oh yeah, for the record, I left my purse in the car and I had to dash to the carpark to get it to pay for my brekky. =P Good thing the guy at the counter trusted me. *LOLOL* My day can't get any random-er than that.

HMmMM... Toasted kaya bun and hot milo... BAGUS.

Indeed, I had a good day. A good time spent reflecting on many things...I enjoyed the temporal freedom. I felt refreshed.
So yeah, if you feel that you need a break, just go out there and do something you usually don't do, or haven't done in a long time.

Yah, Just Do It. I think it does make a difference. At least it did for me any way.

So I am random after all. :D

Sitting on a fence - Pit stop.

I recently remembered about my first blog post talking about my life taking a huge leap when I returned to Malaysia. I think I am currently going through the phase where God is leading me into the second chapter. Looks like the "storm" is taking its toll on me again. I've been thinking a lot about the things that God's been laying in my heart. My hands are pretty much "itchi-fied" to get started with this group of people that I am intending to serve. But yet, I've got mixed emotions swimming within me. I think I am falling into that trap of doubting and I feel like as though I have got a wall right in front of me, blocking my view. I know there's light at the end of the tunnel but I can't see it from here and I wish I could see it now. I don't know how I ended up at where I am today. I'm stuck in a moment of uncertainty. I need a breather. I didn't think I'd feel the way I do now. I feel rather self-centered feeling that no one appreciates the kind of pressure that I am facing. Maybe I think that I am in such an exceptional situation that very few really could. I'm emotionally spent. I think I'm at the wrong place at the wrong time. If I am wrong, please someone tell me so.

I'm reciting in my mind that my Creator is not at all surprised at where I am. The excellent marksman does not waste his ammunation. He waits for the right opportunity and then sends his arrow flying at the precise moment for the maximum effect. I want to believe that He's doing exactly that with me right now. I've just got some polishing up for Him to do before He sends me for the right assignment - to send me soaring. Really, if only a miracle could happen. If only I could wake up the next morning, knowing that the time of waiting is over. Gah, I don't know how long am I going to take to understand the existence of time. This is hard but really, I don't want to be one who professes my trust in God and yet feel like everything depends on me. I am tempted to throw in a quick worldly fix to this situation but I would probably be interfering in a God-willed provision.

I am raising the white flag in this situation now. My bum hurts like crazy sitting on this sharp fence. I know eventually I will be calling it quits for this, but in the mean time, I gotta get through this victoriously. Gotta finish this well. Time to pick up my feet and do the balancing act with You again. And I'll be getting closer towards the end, sooner than expected. I'm closing my eyes now. I'm sinking, help me - You balance my feet (Matthew 14:30-32).


"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who actually is in the arena... , who at the best knows in the end of the triumph of great achievement , and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly. So that his place will never be with those cold timid souls who know neither victory or defeat." - Theodore Roosevelt.

Oh yeah, Happy Lunar New Year 2009 to everyone! :)

The reunion with my small humble family....

"Let Him blow away your pillow!"

"Pull Up Anchor and Catch the Wind for New Boundaries!"
by Chuck Pierce
Dec 3, 2008

Prophetic words given on November 30, 2008:

This past Sunday AM was one of the surprise moments where the Lord comes suddenly and begins to speak to us for the days ahead. This was unusual after all the Turkey Day Festivities, but the Lord's timing is perfect. Use this word below in your prayer time.

Do Not Resist the New Boundaries

"This is a time that I will kindle a fire again, stir the embers, and return the flame of My People. I will have a people who burn again. This will be a season like none other you have known. This will be a season of resetting boundaries. I AM coming into your life and sphere to set your boundaries in new ways. I will be reordering the way you have walked. Your finances will have new boundaries. Your vision will have new boundaries, and many will be positioned in new territories.

"The way you love and express My love will have new boundaries - for in days past your trials have pulled your emotions from their abiding place in Me. Your passions must have new boundaries and your desires must be encapsulated in a new way. This will cause you to burn again. I must have a fire in My people this hour!

"I must gather the embers that have been scattered, because this last season you have been scattered in many areas. I will regather your scattered emotions and get them into a new place within you. I must gather the embers together so I can blow on them and create a new flame. Do not resist the new boundaries. Do not resist the way I will have you doing your assignments this season. This is a time of bringing forth the fire again. I AM the fire, so give me liberty to BURN!

"I will release the wind that will blow on the coals and embers that have lain dormant, smoldering within you. Today is a day of a reverberating sound within the heart of My people. What you are hearing in your heart is My sound, filled with My love - the love of the Father.

"I would say to you - the wind will come gently at the beginning, but by March it will be a torrent upon you. Receive the gentle wind that will begin to blow today that will push you within the boundaries I have for you. Do not resist My wind. If you resist the blowing of My wind and the boundaries that are being reformed around you, My wind will become adversarial to you. If you will receive My wind and your new boundaries, I will become an adversary against your adversaries.

"In March, there will be conflicting, contending winds, therefore, you must have your feet planted. Receive the gentle wind now at the beginning - for My winds will increase and the enemy will also increase his winds and you will see the whirlwinds come by March. If you do not plant your feet and refocus your vision, you will be blown outside of the fence that I have given you and you will say, 'Lord, I'm wandering again. The warfare in this field and the food in this field is not what I need for my future. How did I get here?'"

Raise Your Sail

Keith Pierce has a vision during the prayer time. He shared:

The Lord showed me that some people have let their sails down. As a prophetic act, if you will begin to raise your sails, God will release the wind to bring you out of a troubled place and you will begin to gain momentum to move forward in a new way. Where wandering and wilderness have latched onto you the Lord says:

"Raise your sail. I am releasing the wind so that you can gain momentum this day to come into the fullness of March where there will be a new roar of the Lion of the Tribe of Judah. I am building in My people and gathering this day so raise your sails and catch the wind.

"Raise your sail of expectation for you have lost the power of expectation that I will do anything. If you will raise your sail of expectation today, I will send a gentle wind that restores your desire and your emotions within the new boundaries that I'm setting. Raise your sail of expectation today and you will sail into a new port in days ahead. Raise your sail of expectation today."

I led us in asking forgiveness for letting our sails down in the middle of a crisis time instead of pressing through the adverse waters to the other side. I asked the Lord to forgive us for allowing our expectations to be lessened and fallen in this last season.

The Spirit of God began to speak again: "I am reordering your boundaries and you will have to raise the sail in these new boundaries - for you have let it down in your old boundaries. Now bring your sail up in a new way and watch a new wind begin to come into the new boundaries that I will set for you this month. Let go. Do not worry about depleting your resources. Don't worry about getting to the end of this season. You will raise sail in this new boundary and the wind will blow and you will sail into a new port."

Janice Swinney began to share a vision she had:

When Chuck started praying about lifting the sail, I saw an anchor. The Lord says:

"Regret is like an anchor. Many in this hour have dropped an anchor of regret that is holding them in place. Cut the rope linked with the anchor of regret. You might drift for a while but at least you will start moving again. Hope is in the future. Regret is in the past. Cut off regret so that while you are raising the sail of your boat, My wind can catch you and take you farther than you ever thought you could go - into places you have not even dreamed possible. This is the hour for raising the sail, but also for cutting off all regret so that hope can become the anchor of your soul."

Pull the Anchor Up!

When Janice began sharing, I was reminded of the shirt I wore on Saturday. The shirt was red and covered with gold anchors. While I was out and about shopping all day, I found myself looking at people or thinking about people and declaring that they would pull up their anchors and get ready to head to another shore. I would look at someone or someone would call and I found myself saying, "Pull the anchor up!" At about noon, I heard the Lord say:

"Decree that the thing that has been taunting and mocking My people, to distract them and get them outside of My purposes for their lives and bring them into a place where they are confused or warring amiss, will be addressed in a new way. Declare where some have attempted to settle and protect an old shore and refuse to hear and enter into what I am doing, will now pull up anchor, end that season, and begin to row to a new shore.

"Watch Me bring you into new boundaries. Watch Me move My people forward. If you will tell them to get up and get in the boundaries, no matter how small or even if they have to start over, I will move on them in a new way. I declare now is the time to get in the new place that I am calling you to come to. Reform your boundaries with Me. Raise your sail, lift your anchor, and expect the wind to come.

"Declare a season ended. Declare old thoughts to be pulled out. Declare changes in alliances. Let go of losses. Let go of bruised expectations. I have new assignments. Flow to a new shore!"

We declared a release of the wind to bring forth the flame of the Spirit within us in a new way. After we made the decrees about the wind, on University of North Texas, the wind was clocked from 6 mph at 8am to 26 mph by 1pm!

I went by Target to pick up a new car seat for Chloe and two pillows for our bed. When I walked out of Target, a gust of wind grabbed one of the pillows and it began to blow across the parking lot. People were yelling, "Someone lost their pillow! Look at that pillow!" The Lord then spoke to me personally and said, "I will make sure that you do not get too comfortable this season."

The wind was strong enough that I could not get the pillow at the risk of losing the rest of the supplies I had. I let the pillow go and secured the rest of the purchase. You fill in the blanks.

Blessings,

Chuck D. Pierce
Glory of Zion Ministries

Sesat (blur~lost)

Today....

....I forgot to bring my wallet when I went to the bank to collect my cheque book.

....I forgot to bring my office tag when I headed to the office to hand in my CPA reenrolment form.

....I replied my SMS-es almost every five hours behind time. (hur hur....)

....and I said, "May I have some French Flies to the McDonald's dude at the counter, twice.



WoW.. what a day, Miranda..what a day... *ROTFL

the stool-turned-trusty table - "Mammut"

I just suddenly had a funny memory of remembering this little IKEA stool that I used to have with me back in Brisbane. I thought it was really pretty when I first saw it sitting at the shelves during my furniture shopping days before I moved into my own unit. By the looks of it, it just gave me this warm, happy feeling and so appealing to my eyes. I will just call him (don't mind me, I just thought it should be a "he" because of it's sturdiness that serves as its masculine effect. LOL..) Mammut, just like how IKEA calls him. It was AUD9.99 for one, then. Those were the days when I only had my mattress without the bed frames since never thought there's a need for one. It has indeed served me greatly as a bedside table where I used to conveniently rest my bible/books on after a good read before I hit the sack every night. My Dell laptop used to sit on it when used to work by my bed. It also served as my "shepherding session" table when Mel used to come over and we'll both be sitting on the carpeted floor with Mammut placed between the both of us as I rest my notebook on him scribbling down notes. I spent most of my quiet-time with him too. Times when I knelt before the Lord and rested my eldows on him to pray, times when I was inspired to scribble down notes, thoughts, aspirations, hopes, dreams.... Mammut's been a great company....ahh, those were fond memories.

Couldn't bring Mammut 1 & 2 (yeah, I had 2 of them.... I like extras for the things I love... hehe! ) with me when I left Brissy so I gave them away to good, trusty hands. One's with my ex-fluffy sheep. Stuck a note at the bottom of it sharing my blessings that this stool will continue to serve as a sturdy notebook-supporter during shepherding times with her future sheeps~!! The other one should be supporting.... Didi's keyboard, me thinks! Unless it went elsewhere... *LoL*. Di, Any new songs composed lately, dear? I wanna hear! :P

Kinda miss having Mammut around me.
Maybe this can stay in my Christmas wish-list for now. =)